Dan
14 November 1989
adore chocolate,mocha and cameras.
CHIJ SJC
Ngee Ann Poly HS
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Jan 5, 2010, Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Bye 2009.
Hello tooodlelidoo, i am back from the a less hectic schedule.this entry was meant for 31st december 2009. however, my schedule was really tight to allow me having a reflection of what i have did in year 2009 before welcoming a new year. in fact, i am still deluding myself in 2009.
pretty much year 2009 has been a good year!
things have been going quite smoothly. just a few hiccups and hard work for me..
lets begin a few incidents which etched in my memories before letting it to become a past.
i've changed so much in this year.
became more vain. hahah! that rebonding increases my confidence level.thats for sure..
i think the biggest and craziest thing i did was to get a bikini with Amy. :) (i really miss you amy. hope u are reading this and you're fine. :)
still spontaneous, playful and always come up with stupid pranks. however, things start to change in the recent month.
i cant behave like my usual bubbly self infront of everyone except my loves one. there is an image to maintain in my profession. most importantly, i did my very best to keep myself low profile but failed badly in that attachment.
Nursing has changed my life.
the very first step to adult hood and working world was to sign the bond.
it was a very bold move of me.
it changes my thinking, maturity level. makes me more independent than before.
that attachment was traumatizing for me. i guess u know which one i am refering to. :)
it teaches me to be independent and i am not shameful or scared to eat alone at the canteen now. sounds pathetic but reality hits me hard. there are so many kind of people in this world and not all of them are angelic as i thought the world is.
i've fallen and not easy to pick myself up until recently. letting go and face it instead of running away .
intially,i was scared to be in a group,afraid to open up to others especially people i didnt contact for some times.most importantly, bottling myself up.i am thankful to be back in my normal self. thanks for people who have been encouraging and supporting me all this while. handful of buddies who always standby me.
god has been watching over me. it was really blessing in disguise to meet people in wd 11 who are kind to teach and guide me during that tough period. they sayang me like nobody business during that period to make me learn.
another thing about work is having R as my preceptor. this period has been really stressful for me. goodness, i do not know how many times have i mention in the blog.
Rumour spread on how strict he is and etc. i was afraid, intimidated and fearful of him.this period of him guiding me was really stressful, demoralising because he's so knowledgeable with his work BUT i really learn alot from him. More than other student nurses.
thats why my schedule is so busy. i've to study so much and less time for myself. to a point, i really want to break down. it was a period of feeling unfair to work so much compared to the rest. Right now, i am thankful for his teaching and guidance.
i was really glad to hear that he was pleased with my performance. out from his golden mouth was really precious to me.
it actuallyy mean alot and hope i can maintain my standard when i am back for continuation of my PRCP.
Blog.
i hated blogging for a period of time because realizing certain things which i blog will cause insecurity/competiveness in certain people. you might think i am being boastful but i am not. if you know what i am refering to, i've female hormone in me and i know whats going on.
secondly, i dont wish to become like another person. hate it when i read archives of my past was full of sarcasm or words to spike other person so i stopped.
secondly,I've learn and control that words of anger should not be posted in the net to cause unnecessary hurt to others and regret it when anger has dissolve.
it was time to grow up, time to confront when there is unhappiness arises instead of words of anger or sarcasm or hidden meaning to get back the person if u get what i mean.
right sandy?
truly glad i was pulled back by Akira and shiwei to stop being narrow minded and holding on. i was glad i'm free from unnecessary trouble now. it really work when stop visiting of unnecessary blog for a long time. its been a while alr. :)
for my love ones.
family has always been there. more time were spend together. :)
doting their dearest er jie. hahah! appreciated the little things they did.
shiwei and i are going to be together for 2 years.
time really flies.
we have been squabbling so often in this year but still sticking each other like super glue. hehe!
he has been a cheeky and protective bf of mine. its great to have his encouragement and his positive attitude to neutralise the negative side of me.
loving me now and then. i will not come thus far if not of your encouragement.
friends have been really understanding. i had been a very bad friend of not able to meet up most of the time but all of u are nice to accomodate my timing. most importantly, hearing my rant when times are bad and showering the concern that i need. a big thank you to my darling girls. everyone of you all. u know who you are. :)
as for my long lost buddy,i was glad we're back to talking term this year.i guess it was the teaching lesson for my sister.thank you for being such a nice friend. :)
Oh! MY baby dslr. how can i miss it.
it was really exciting on the day i got you!
hahah! a really crazy act which i never regret. i never spend so much on a gadget at all. really cherish it till now. everyone loves you! heheh
To e people who encourage, bring me down, cheering or jeering.
be it the cleaner in the ward or the doc who kicked a big fuss.
i have learnt so much this year.
A turning and learning point for me. thank you from e bottom of my heart. :) I've learnt to be stronger and more independent.
P.S : wow. thats my longest entry for this few months.
had close a chapter of my life.
an exciting 2009. byebye. :)