Drench in vanilla twilight with me.

i've decided to do a reflection on year 2007 before waving goodbye to it.

where shall i begin?

getting started of the year isnt a good start at all. i was tormenting in pain though everything is appearing fine.think the most dramastic change was changing from sjc to poly.

yeah it seemed fine that dan is adapting well to her enviroment, her own clique of friends but another part of me i felt empty inside.

there are loads and loads of crying session this year. this is not how i used to behave like a crying baby.

sandy did mention this before, maybe sjc was a smaller compound with your own pool of friends and getting fix with the prob or anything just get easy.

however a new change of starting all over again and close friends are all busy with their own work and life, there is no one to turn to, crying seemed to be the best way out.

i felt very insecured at all times, never expect my tears to fall so easy just like a tap water. praying really hard that 2008 will be better year.

myself

guess i have changed somehow. i am not really opening up my circles of friends anymore.

a better conclusion of having more close friends than acquintances.

had a better idea of who i am. getting loads of misunderstanding and didnt know how to bring the message correctly. i hate getting misunderstood but what to do?

know what is happening and yet didnt have any clue to deal with it.

a very complicated mind and unpredictable person who behaves like a wave. the extreme.haha.

next stage of life,a step closer to the working world.i am scared.

studies.

apparently, if i start to work hard right now and mug my way through. think shouldnt be a problem.however another side of me feel like giving up because nursing isnt my option but i already spent one sem in studying and there's no way saying bye to it. or else my parents money will go down the drain.

friends.

meeting jo,amy, sharity, xiangqin and kelvin are really a pleasure to have them in school. in times of schooling, i enjoyed but still there is a distance between us as all of us have our own life. the remaining school days with u all, i will cherish it before changing to a new class. :)

thanks! <3

the people whom make a impact in my life.

zhen: all of us are separated and i know your countless effort to meet up. at times i really felt upset when in time of needing u are not there like how you used to sit next to me back in sjc. haha but your concern for me is still there and i can feel it.

we do drift slightly cause time is a good killer and in addition of different things that we're pursuing,or saying things makes you so angry with me

nevertheless, i know both of us have a place for each other and you love me alot! bleah! i know! :)

we must meet up more, we really must. heheh! i miss you. :)

sandy:

dear sand! i didnt know what you've been doing recently though we just met for bbq but didnt really talk much because we were busy with our food or you're busy bullying yaowen away.

okay prob you're busy dating away but i know we still have loads of heart to heart talk session at the bus stop with each other. <3

i'm really grateful for being my listening ear and i do lend you my pair of ears too!

this 6 years of friendship going 7 is still making it.

remember the valentine's day card that u gave. we have overcome it! a guy can never come between us. :) hahaha!

i believe those words that i type here can never compare to the bond between our friendship.

i thank you for bringing yaowen to your life because you make me found back my long lost pri 1 friend. :)

fang:

our friendship grew closer after the mugging session during O's and childcare and until now.

the girl whom knows everything happening in my life just like my walking diary. ahhaah!

okay you really gotta bear with my irritatingness and my nonsensical logic plus standing yourindirecting suaning.

still, i'm really grateful to have you by my side.

-hugs-

hwee:

always have loads of fun together in school or outside.

we dont really talk so much this year but i'm still glad we have update of each other life.

probably i wasnt the first person for you to lean on and if you wish to share with me. i'm here and we'll have night bball session soon. take care. :)

shiwei:

hey hey you you! :)

got to know you at the very beginning of the year and didnt expect things has happen like now.

the very first impression of you is the dumb policeman who poking fun at me as a nurse who afraid of blood causing a constant laughing makes me hit the PS cafe window.hmph.

needless to say, i was impressed with the effort that you've made this while.

the chocolate surprise, herbal tea and etc. i was grateful to for all the things that you did for me . thanks :)

oh yes, i gave you hell for a period of time of hot and cold atittude because i didnt know what to do. the best is to communicate. eh! you makes me feel angry at times

too when the joke got too far but i'm a very nice girl,all those shall be pardon due to the lil action of yours tells that you care.

and at the end of the day whether we'll end up together or not. i am glad i've know you.even if we dont or both of us change of mind somehow. i'll still be please the things you did for me. :)

awww.. dont be touched when you see this because i know you will. :)

JS and gang :

hello! we arent close like the previous year because i dont need to know chemistry anymore!hah both of us are busy with our life and i still thinks of you k!

you're my very first close guy friend. buddy! thanks for all the fun and long chat on the phone.

zhiping and guohua, we dont spend much time having heart to heart talk but i always enjoy you guys company. :)

fw and co.

its always have fun knowing them and i think i really will miss fabian.

a nice ending of year 2007 to be spend with them.

hello ruixin, if you're reading this.

sorry for not able to meet up this whole year. all of us are so busy with our life and had changed.nevertheless all of you are still in my thoughts somehow. i hope to have a meetup session soon.:) take care

alright, a little note for everyone.

year 2007 is not a ver likeable year for me but i still thanked those people that i've mention for being there for me. :)

hope year 2008 will be a better year.

now after a long entry, i am hungry and back for more for the past few days! :)